Always After

All of us must fall.

Crumble off the masterpiece we painted

in pastel blues and reds and black. Always black.

Faded like the love you preached

yet couldn't muster.

Holding on to what could have been,

not one single tangible fact.

Just your lying eyes and all we made

on all those blackened nights, lighting the skies with your eyes.

When your body knelt and prayed for me,

calling me to lay in your hellish bed.

A body burning in the sin of all the 

men that took you, then and after. Always after.

Voices Scream Desires

Far down, so far down

Where even the cold don’t come

around no more. And life...life

is just a breath away from death.

Voices scream desires.

Some are dead and some are dyin’.

Their words are meant to fuck you up.

Cut you and slice you. Murder.

And we never touch each other,

Scared of feeling.

And I breathe in death.

I breathe your stench,

the flavor of the month.

copyright 2006 salvador cordova

Alone in the Dark

The years burned away.

Like a grassfire out of control,

‘Til all you have left is a

smoldering black mark in your path

that’ll burn you each time you tread there.

You ask yourself what your time is worth,

Waiting for heroes that don’t exist.

Praying for miracles that don’t occur.

Hope flies away like that

Last ray of sunlight before dusk,

Leaving you alone in the dark.


copytright 2007 salvador cordova

The End is Not Near, the End is Here

After that day, after Louis pushed me through the portal and shut those horrors from this world, I promised I would never speak of what I experienced that day. Who would have believed anyway? I kept that oath for almost thirty years. Then Louis knocked on my door.

I recognized him immediately even as my cancerous and dying flesh reflected alien in his eyes. He looked the same as he did the day before we made that mistake. I fell to my knees hugging his legs and kissing his jeans. In the same muddy voice I dreamt of, he asked me to stand and could we step inside; I rose quickly and let him in shutting the door behind him. He stood just inside our home looking anxiously around. How the world had changed. I reached for him and kissed his lips. He returned the kiss with the same passion I longed for but as I kissed on his bottom lip the meat fell off into my mouth. I opened my eyes looking straight into his gums and teeth as his lips where gone. I spat his lip from my mouth and once more fell to the floor holding my stomach as it evicted all of its contents on the floor.

I looked up at him. With a wave of his hand across his face his lips reappeared as if nothing occurred. “I apologize. I should have warned you. I no longer have the power to control much here. Time has been more than cruel to me.” I wiped my mouth with the back of my hand and stood again on weakened legs. “What do you mean? It’s all over isn’t it? If you’re here it means it’s all over.” Louis looked down then turned away from me. “I thought I could win. I thought I was doing a brave thing. That day, after the hell we went through, I thought I could finish it.” I walked over and stood in front of him. “You did. You saved me. You saved us all. If you hadn’t stayed behind and guarded that gate who knows what they would have let loose in this world.” He raised his eyes to me. “You don’t understand do you? If I’m not there watching the portal, who is?” Surprisingly, I felt no fear or apprehension. No nervousness. I had him and that meant all. “It’s ok we’re together now Louis. How long do we have?” I watched the trail of steam as a tear rolled down his face and pulled his face to mine and gently kissed the tear away. I felt his heat. Smelled my own burning flesh.

“I just wanted to see you, to hold you again. I’m sorry. I’m so sorry. I . . .” I stopped him. “You have nothing to apologize about. I’ve regretted every moment since I let you push me out. We’re together now and that means all to me. I don’t care what happens to this world or to me as long as you are with me.” I could hear the screams of the people outside. I felt the ground shake as buildings tumbled and the giants set foot on our world. I kissed him again. I held on as tightly as I could. His flesh fell off again but this time I swallowed because I knew that would be the only way I could feel him inside me again. And I was happy. For the first time in so many years I was happy. Louis gave himself to me as he always had. He burned inside of me. My insides giving way to his fire but I continued. I loved him that much. He protected us for as long as he could. Hiding us from their minds and nostrils. Until I left nothing of him.

When the marauders broke through my door, with their oval heads and eyeless faces and mouths on their hands, they found no trace of the Louis they hungered for. I put up no fight for I would die happy and I would die with him. To hell with this world.

Copyright 2010 Salvador Cordova

She Thought Him Plain

Don't you know I love you, he said

As she soaked in the rain.

Taking him inside her,

Her heels in the small of his back.

Tell me you love me, he begged

And she moaned and slapped him.

Her hips not yet satisfied.

He cried on her breasts and

She thought it rain.

He died in her arms

And she thought him plain.

Copyright 2008 Salvador Cordova

Love No One

She held him cold natured,
Hinting painfully of rapture.
But she held it all inside
For the vagabonds and idlers to divide.
She loved him so,

But with he biggest wave
She would let him go.
Love no one, save
the one who took your soul.
Love no one, save the one
who took it all.
Love no one, love no one, love no one.

Copyright 2006 Salvador Cordova

A Wild Rhythm

He closed his eyes and could hear her heart beating. A wild rhythm. Like placing your hand over a bristling race horse. So far away and still he could hear her heart. Guiding him. To her. The fervor overwhelmed him. It was more than he could handle. But it was all he wanted, so he took it. So far away. Yet, in his soul, in his heart, in his being she was right there holding him. Loving him. And he loved her. Distance meant nothing.

Copyright 2015 Salvador Cordova

Judas Spoke....

I remember how you bit your lip

As Judas spoke.

Still you boarded that one way ship.

Leaving behind all the smoldering smoke.

How long before your soul began to rot?

Could you smell the decay day to day?

At what price was your love bought?

To the highest bitter or whoever would pay?

Something to Hold on to

Love is a word so over used. Love her, love him, love that. And we all think we know what love is. These feelings that run through us, the butterflies, the highs a face or a touch or a kiss can give us. I thought I knew what love was. Then I met you. All I thought I knew about that word went out the window. Yea you gave me all those feelings, but they weren't fleeting. They stayed. And you weren't even trying. They became a part of me. The word love wouldn't suffice anymore. You taught me to change that word into life and eternity and forever and my heart is full. You showed me unselfishness. To give everything to another. To have a feeling so deeply that nothing not even time and distance could erase it. Making love became a part of the deal. The word sacrifice disappeared because these feelings for you overpowered any hint of loss. To place that beautiful smile on your face, no thing was too much, too far, too difficult. You are a

part of me somehow,  like my eyes or my lungs or my soul. I couldn't imagine you not being in my life. Many people say I give you my heart, I give you all my love, no one will love you as much as I will. I can't do that. Those are phrases with empty meaning. A man might as well promise you the Sun, the Moon and the Stars. I give you every second you want to spend with me. I give you the highest position in my life. I give you all that you want from me. I give you everything I am and will be. And that, that is something tangible you can hold on to.